NO LONGER THE SAME PERSON U SEE BEFORE

2007-12-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

Wow and i thought this blog was dead le
i sure surprised myself that i stil remembered the password
lols
anw haven been blogging for the past like 2 mths
cos of the A levels and immediately aft the A levels had to work le
cos the company got shortage of manpower so i had to start immediately
was a delivery person for almost 1 mth and well stopped working now
well partly because they no need part timers le
and secondly i wan to enjoy my remaining month before ns

Well been very bugged by some problems these days
and i dun noe wat can i do to try to solve this
anw christmas is coming soon
which means its time to go buy presents for frens le
haha lucky this year got work part time
so got money to get christmas presents for ppl
well gotta go and settle some stuff le
lols
update this almost dead blog another time bah

All i want for christmas is juz 10 mins
is tat too much to ask for?

2007-10-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging lately
been busy wif my schoolwork bah
and my prelims
a lvls are coming too
so most likely wun be blogging for the time being again

Results are out
and mine are the average
not really well done
but at the same time not too badly done as well

Another 22 days left to the big A's
hopefully my engine will keep on running
but i still have a problem yet to be solved
but aft today aft reading something
i realised that wat i wanted was not wat really wat i needed
and i feel so guilty that i dragged my frens down a wraped thinkin

I dunno if the people will read this
but if u wan to say things abt me
i dun mind
but dun drag my frens into this
imagine how u will feel if i say that abt ur frens
i am not following anyone
cos i have my own life ok

Well it time to start studyin and stop thinkin abt affairs of the hearts
it juz not time yet

2007-08-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm
it has been a long time since i last blogged le bah
been studying in school til quite late at night
and once i reach home go sleep liao
and the cycle continues again the next day
how boring my life can get

Luckily there are the friends that i study with
to keep me company during these boring nights
ppl like wei peng aloy jackie leonard and tyson
lols

2007-08-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

Well haven been blogging for some time
due to the staying back in school to study til ard 10 everyday
so here is a quick update of my ever so boring life

Tues was my birthday
and i really wanna thx my class and my flag party juniors
for celebrating my birthday wif me
not to mention the ppl who wished me happy birthday
special thx to wp aloy jackie kj for organizing the celebration for me
and tyson and leonard too for the present
thx also to stella jasper and jason
well had a fufilling 18 birthday celebration
but really hoped that someone who didnt wish me
would wish me happy birthday that day

Wed had national day celebrations
woke u at ard 5 to make it to sch at 6.30 to help the juniors wif the parade
was the mc that day and was feeling a bt nervous that day
anw the parade was a great success and was really proud of my juniors
aft that was an outing wif gary to celebrate my birthday
went to cathay to catch two movies
secret and rush hour 3
secret was kinda of a nice show where jay chou was showing off his piano skills
which were godlike
whilst rush hour 3 was like the previous 2 really funny
lols

Well for thurs

happy birthday singapore

went to catch the fireworks at marina wif wp
and managed to find a good spot to see the fireworks
too bad was watching it was another guy again this year
went home and found out sth that really spoilt the day
hais dun wanna talk abt it le

Its really not meant to be de bah
maybe i am juz trying to make it happen
but i really cant change fate

2007-07-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

Well got kinda screwed up today
it actually kinda make sense to me what he said
yeah right
life is not all about books man
get a life all right
results are not everything
they are juz another alternative
the easier way out

All of us can see that
somehow or another
u dun really like the bunch of us
and nope i am not only talkin abt the 5 of us
u shoot us when we dun really study
ok go on that's ok
how abt those who really put in effort
muz u really scold them as well

And one more thing
i study not to prove that i can score well for u to see
i study for myself ok
dont think so highly of yourself please

Its time to start studying harder that usual
and this time its serious
no more procrastining
i am going to do the best that i have ever done

2007-07-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for quite some time liao ah
cause of the exams lately
and the lack of time i have wif my laptop
anw a brief update on wat's goin on bah
lols

Mid year's results juz came back
hit an all time low in physics lah
shall not say the marks
maths was rather ok as usual
except for the stats paper lah
chem was not really well done
not up to my expections bah
to sum it up
this mid year's was done pretty badly

Today went back to montfort for the COC parade ah
changing of command
for those who are thinkin wat COC is
well the parade was kinda good
and had time to bond again with friends of my batch
it was a long time since i had seen all of them
and today we had a good time bonding tgt
it's been a long time since i went out with such a large grp of guys
and we really had fun hanging around
kinda of miss those days where we would hang at macs aft trainings bah
lols

2007-07-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

Well half of the papers for the mid year is over
and i have a feeling that i am not doing the best i shld
man i need my motivation quickly

Been hanging around with the Bsk
plus a few others such as tyson leonard and wenrong
was supposed to go study de
but i think i ended up dota-ing
going to the arcade and emo-ing
more than hitting the books
oh well
at least when u are not studying
u are at least having fun

2007-06-17T02:28:00.000+08:00

I seriously think my life's a joke

2007-06-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

Sometimes buying a booster
and trying to get the card that u need is kinda hard
its like the chance is very small
but u are stil wanting to take the chance and try to get it
and sometimes no matter how hard it is
u will still keep on trying
kinda similar to relationships eh =x

2007-06-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

Went for my NS medical check up today
was all clear for pes A until i went for my ecg
and the height and weight measurement
my ecg was screwed with my heart beat being a bit funny
cos sometimes no readings on the chart
juz a blank space which is not normal bah
den for height and weight
grew taller by 2 cm to 182
but lost weight to 57
so in the end severely underweight
with bmi of 17.2 and optimal bmi was 18.5
and i think that was the reason i downgraded to pes B
damm
zzz

What would happen if i could turn back time
not do the things that i did before
would the situation be better
and will not feel like strangers

Last week of holidays
and i am not yet finished with my revision
man am i going to be so screwed in my mid year this time
what has my motivation that pushed me thru my promos gone to
i desperately need help
zzz

2007-06-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

Went out to study with pk today ah
sorry for being late ah
studied at mos burger
updated each other abt many things
woah didnt know i missed out on so much lah
settled some minor differences
and were on the way to crapping again

Anw heard something today
which totally made my day ah
thanks a lot ah
you can always help to cheer me up ah
and it really made me a happy man

Glad to know that someone actually likes me before =)

2007-06-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

Had a shrek 3 school movie outing today
kinda fun and the show was kinda funny
bought the shrek headband wif aloy hf and kj
in support of the RMCC =)
met this nice projectionist
hope to see him again soon

Completed virtual cop 3 once again
but this time i managed to get to unlock the 4 mission
although didnt get to complete
but stil i got a new high score
2.7 million =x

Sad thing was the coldness in the place
and darn i dun have a jacket
to protect me frm the cold

2007-06-03T02:02:00.000+08:00

Happiness is taking a bus ride home with you
and successfully do it

Sadness is trying to talk to you
but getting ignored

Anger is when i hear something
and feel that it is unfair to me

Jealously is when you are with another person
and i am not that person

Revenge is sweet to some
but does it matter in the end

2007-05-31T19:54:00.000+08:00

Life suddenly seems to be very peaceful
that is for me only bah
damm
gotta try to find something exciting to do soon
or i be covered in dust in no time

2007-05-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

We have completed another journey
and now we have to embark on the next one which is our studies
but no matter what
thanks to Dansez-le for all the memories
and the new experiences that i have encountered
in the last 6 months
although it was short
but it was stil very memorable

Many thanks to the guys
aloy alvin tyson and shaun
for the talks and the dinners and other stuff
aloy peu alvin shaun kai ying
in working together training for the trios
teik ling for giving me the chance to join dance

Indeed it was a pleasure to join dance
and i have never regeretted the decision
it has also changed my perception
and widen my views

I feel that i had really put in all my best
into last night performance
doing all the movements with real feeling
and i really enjoyed every moment of it

Really many thanks to Dansez-le once again
for all the memories and experiences in the past 6 months

2007-05-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

Some how i just feel that you have become so unattainable
some how i think that you and i are on very different levels

Fight for the person you love
and not the people who are close to them

I can be so much more than this

2007-05-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

It's funny how you can look at us with such a sian face
but to others, for example girls
you show such a different face
changing into someone that was once disliked
i starting to see you in two faces
one is the one we once known
and the other a shadow
which we do not know what your next step is

Oh wells
don't bother asking me
whether the person i am refering to is you
cause if you do
i think you will be more guilty of it
and if you want to settle it once and for all
please just do it face to face
we're getting more and more tired of this
thank you very much

2007-05-13T00:58:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you may just change into someone
which you said that you have never wanted to be
a secretive life that you want to no one to know
what and why your intentions are for
is that what you really want
ask your heart about it
cause the people around you can never tell you
what you really want

2007-05-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

I've tried but failed
is this what life is all about
trying and failing until one day u can succeed
but now the most important thing to do
is to get back on my two feet
and start getting on with my own life

The road to the end of the year just gets tougher and tougher

2007-05-06T20:42:00.000+08:00

I have got something really important to do
however i think i am afraid of knowing what the answer is
afraid of the setback that i may face
what if the answer is no
what will i do
will i be able to get up on my feet again fast enough
there are also still many other considerations as well
what should i do
really confused now

2007-04-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

Its times like this that i feel like giving up
but its also times like this that will make me treasure this more
i am at the crossroads
which route should i take now
should i continue forward
and preserve on
or should i just make a detour
and just walk away from the path
that i have chosen to walk in the first place

I choose to continue forward
but
how come it seems so easy for the others
but yet so hard for me
am i juz not talented in this
or am i just cursed to lead this kind of life

Anw no need to read too much into it
cause you are not me
and you might not know what i am talking about

On a lighter note
i juz got praised for being honest today during chem
although it was not for something very great to boast about
yeah

2007-04-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its has no meaning in playing a game
when the opposing team does not even attack

Sometimes its has no meaning going into a game
when you know that the opponent is way better than you

Sometimes everything just has no meaning
when i do not know what will my next step be

I feel like i am fighting a losing battle
maybe its the time where i have to reflect
and see if i should continue on this battle

2007-04-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

Fate as most people may thinks
can be controlled in your own hands
however sometimes what you try to make possible
may sometimes be impossible to make

There are people concerned about you
that you may not know
One of them is me

Everytime you cry
save up all the tears
i will be your rainbow when they disappear

Wash away the pain
till you smile again
i will be the one who lights your life
everytime you cry

2007-04-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

The SYF results were out today
and the results were that we got a sliver
emotions ran high today and most of the girls cried
the guys juz sat there like some wooden blocks
and did not know what to do ba
we didnt really expect the results
but luckily everyone cheered up aft a while

Cheer up Dansez-Le
Dun think so much about the results le
we know we did our best le
and there should be no regrets le
instead we should think about all the times
we had in the trainings
and the fun and laughter we had
yeah hopefully time will heal all wound

2007-04-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

Have you had enough of your nonsense already?

2007-04-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

Being there but not there at the same time

2007-04-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

Juz remember the show Constantine
and thought up of the words that was mentioned
its juz a brief idea that i tot of
not sure if its the exact words

Heaven does not want me
neither can i go to hell
i juz have to stay on earth
to fight the demons
and try my best to go to heaven

These words got me thinking
what if i was like that
would anyone be able to help
pondering over lots of things now

2007-04-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

Had kind of an interesting day today
kind of fun as well as being able to widen knowledge
thanks a lot for the invitation

2007-04-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was most probably my last time doing duty
as the parade commander for morning assembly
time passes so fast
and now is the time for us the J2 to step down
and i to find someone to take over as the vice president
i think we are the fastest cca to step down

Being a parade commander has taught me many lessons
i have learnt self discipline thru it
and i have learnt confidence and taking pride in what i have done
i have learnt how to be understanding
and to be patient and learn time management
although there were some people who pissed me off in the cca
but i stil enjoyed the whole process

Some people may think that flag party is a cca
that you have to come early in the morning to prepare
and that you have to stay back to 5 plus 6 to lower the flags
sure that is one thing that i cannot deny is boring
but stil the times waiting were somewhat enjoyable at times

It was this cca that allowed me to go for LTC
one of the camps that i truly enjoyed
meeting many new and great friends
and having many great experiences with them

The most memorable experience about flag party
was that we were able to plan for the national day celebrations
although it was a very small parade
not the very grand kind
but stil we put in all our efforts into it
and made it a success
thanks to everyone who participated in the parade

For those times that i was unable to make it for flag lowering
i am really sorry that i had to trouble the others to help me
really glad to be able to work with all of you all
sheng xiang leonard yuda ken khoon poh boon eva
thanks a lot for making the year we were in the cca
such a memorable one

From next week onwards
the J2 will most probably not be doing duty anymore
but instead will be mentoring the J1 in the duty
till the new exco is formed where we will officially be free
hope that all the J1 in flag party will come to realise soon
that although flag party is a cca with a lot of responsibilities
there is still the fun element in it
in which you all have to find it

And for those exco's in the other cca which are steeping down soon
hope that you all oso enjoyed serving the term in your various cca
and cause you all are all stepping down soon
hope that there will be more enjoyable moments that you all can enjoy
before stepping down

To all those cca who are taking part in SYF
and especially to dance
good luck to all
and hope that we will do the school proud

2007-04-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

Had physical fitness test today
did quite well for the few station ba
was actually aiming for 30 points
but my 2.4km run timing was 11.05
which is a B
so had to do with 29 points
which is also quite good as well ba

Bad events usually happens before good
things have to get really really bad
before they can get good
good follows bad
pretty amazing right

Youth is wasted on the wrong people

2007-04-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

Its not as simple as you all think it is

2007-04-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

I know this may sound very unbelieveable
but this is a wishlist to santa
yeah i noe i am too old alrdy
but he has missed my house for the couple of yrs
and i hope he comes this year

Dear santa
i have been a really good boy this year and for the last couple of years
yepps the years that u have missed out on my house
but this year i hope that u can grant all my wishes on my wish list
and hope to see u drop by soon
for starters you could always give me more money
and you could also help me with my A levels and the results
and probably you could help me get a new bed
but most importantly
all i wan for christmas is ...

thanks a million santa

Anw happy april fool's day to everyone out there

What if i said that i wanna be with you
what if i said that i liked you
what if today is the last day on Earth
what if i said that i will be by your side
what if i said that today is the 1st of April

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY
haha

2007-03-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

This post was inspired by my old fren gary

Toilets are the most impt thing
they serve all people be it
young or old
male or female
they do not appeal to only a certain group of people
therefore it is impt that we have clean toilets
a clean toilet can make the day of a person visitin it
while a dirty one can spoil the day

2007-03-29T21:05:00.000+08:00

Is the fate of a person pre determined
or is it in your own hands
can u really control ur own life
are choices made really made by yourself
or has it alrdy been pre determined

Simple things can actually seem complicated
or is it that we choose to complicate things ourselves
why not start thinking simply for some things
and mayb life will be happier

2007-03-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

Had dance for the past couple of days
tues and thurs was at the UCC hal
where we were able to train at the actual stage
worked with the lightings and realised simple colours
can actually look good

On wed went to bedok view sec to perform wif 2 other schools
more exposure and had more stage experience
overall was done quite nicely ah

Thurs had performance at nanyang wif the 2 schools as well
could say that we did quite well ba
as many people told us that it was quite a nice performance
the other schools were oso good too

Had to put make up on wed and thurs
cos we had the costumes

many thanks to michelle sharon and shu hui for helping us put the make up

the guys really felt very shy ah
cos some of us put for the first time ah

Was allowed to skip school on these 3 days ah
hopefully can catch up on the work ba
need to work harder from now on le
haha

2007-03-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

Time will tell all the answer
its juz that we have the problem of waiting for it
sometimes we may juz miss it by a few seconds
and miss out on the only chance we have

2007-03-25T18:08:00.000+08:00

Went to watch pathfinder yesterday
many thanks to laoda for the movie and dinner treat
wanted to watch stomp the yard
however it was a full house so had to stik with pathfinder
the show was kinda complicated at first
but after a while it got a little more interesting ba
haha

Aft the movie tyson and alvin had to go
so left laoda eric aloy and me at carls jr talking
gained a bit of insight and den aloy had to go le
went to look for gary and aaron
and went to watch tmnt
nt really up to expectaions ba
haha

Well went for a pizza survey today
thanks to aloy who had something on
and could not make it
needa gif him a treat
had free pizza to eat although it was 2 slices only
and was given 15 dollars cash and another 15 dollars voucher
gee hope that had given 30 dollars cash instead but well nvm
haha

Tried the website on tyson blog and here one i find it amusing and like a lot:
I always say a kiss on the hand might feel very good, but a Gerald lasts forever

2007-03-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to an old fren of mine
one who has walked the lonely road wif me for many years le
haha

First look are always the misleading factor
It take time to know a person but even more time to understand them
It always start with "You are my best guy fren"
There is always someone u can count on when there is trouble
The distance between two person will not matter as long as their hearts beat as one

Yeps this phrases are to you
hope u enjoy them
haha
and this part of the song is for u too
and to all out there who are having difficulties in ur relationships

Its getting hard to be around you
Theres so much I cant say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I dont know how to be fine when Im not
Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop

2007-03-24T00:00:00.001+08:00

The truth usually hurts
maybe i wanna noe the truth
maybe i dun wanna noe the truth
maybe i am just afraid of the hurt and pain
that comes from most of the truths

I feel like i am in a game now
a game which i dun wanna stop playing
but at the same time i dun wanna see the ending
isnt it kinda dumb
zzz

The pieces are falling into place now
and i feel that although it may not be what it means
i still wanna feel that way
maybe its my lack of confidence for this kind of things

I don't want to need anymore

2007-03-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

Sometimes a change of image can mean a lot of things
sometimes the little things u wear
or the clothes u put on tells alot abt u
it like when u wear black
u seem to be the cool type
pink when u feel happy

The accessories u put on may also indicate something
sometimes juz a small necklace
a pair of earrings
or a bracelet can mean a lot
u might be in love
or trying to get a person's attention

It's funny how u can observe a person juz by lookin at what they wear
maybe if u are free in the near future
you could juz go to a shopping mall
get a drink and observe the people walking ard u
i realised that we have been caught up wif the busy-ness of life
that we have forgotten to notice these little detail

2007-03-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

The block test is juz a few days away
and everytime i go back to sch to study
i see people chionging all the way
but somehow or another
i dun feel the same way
i feel that i am a bit slow at my revision
dun ask me why
cos i wun be able to answer u
i have been able to complete a little of my revision
but its stil not enuff
hopefully tml will be a better and fruitful day

2007-03-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

What's this feeling inside me
why is it so weird
i shld be feeling happy
but i am not
something feel like its missing inside
but i cant put my finger to it
why is this happening

I feel my confidence level dipping
its not as high as before
i really cant do well in this kinda stuff
no matter how hard i try
its always a screw up somewhere

I'm juz a man looking for his dreams

2007-03-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah
was able to watch the movie 300
even though it was M18 and i am stil 17
cos my birthday haven passed yet
and i have watched it twice in one day
cos two grps of frens wanna watch
so went wif them
lucky it was worth it ah

The movie was kinda nice
the storyline and buildup was good
and that the show was damm cool
wif many battle scenes and killings
although there were some scenes were kinda of disturbing
if u noe wat i mean (hints M18)
yupps so if u got time to catch a movie in the holidays
u could catch 300
i would rate it 4 out of 5 stars ah

Abt other days
had dance training on friday and saturday
and leaders course on the same day
was supposed to go on friday
but in the end did not cos saturday had trainin too ah
more or less used to the trainings le
so but 2 days in a row is a little tiring ba
gt a few injuries ah
hope that all is fine now
take care dansez-le
haha

Block test are coming le
and its tiime to study le
so yups most prob will not be blogging for the time being le
haha

2007-03-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

Lies and hypocrisy can bring u to greater heights
if u are good enough to make them seem so real
it does not matter what methods u use when fighting a war
but at least please show some sportsmanship
and stop backstabbing and using others to sow discord
it will work
but eventually u will be found out
and when that happens
you will fall from the heavens
to the burning hell that awaits your coming

Are u happy now that we are in your game
trying to put a mask
acting so innocent and so decent in front of everyone
we may be inside your game now
but it will be your own undoing
and u will regret that u ever put us there in the first place
its all or nothing at all
its going to be time for showhand
u have the advantage now
but the future is unexpected
do not ever take us as easy opponents
as we may not be as simple as u think we are
no matter how good u play your cards in hand
good will always win evil

And to whoever i may be talking abt
it not who u think it is
so please dun bother asking around
as this is something very personal
a debt that muz be paid

2007-03-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

A levels results out yesterday
NY did a great job for last year's exams
had almost 200 ppl having 3 or more distinctions
the pressure is now really on us the J2 of this year le
to keep up with the standards

Anw congrats to laoda for getting 4 distinctions
and eric for getting an AAB
not forgetting ck who got a BBB
lets give them a round of applause
hope u all can get into the courses u all wan

Got back chinese A levels results as well
got a B which is really not wat i wanted
but nevertheless i feel it was quite well done
emotions ran high yesterday
and hopefully all are feeling better now
what matters is that u did ur best

Seeing the results this year has made me even more motivated
motivated to study harder and to at least go up stage to get my results

i will prove it to you mr wong
i will prove it to u that i need not be a mugger with no life
juz to score well
i will show u that i can have a life and score well at the same time
juz u wait and see

I have finally found my motivation
and its not mainly from the teachers
not from the results of the A levels
but from someone special
someone that is special in my heart
someone that i am willing to work hard for
and score the best that i ever will

2007-02-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

I am going to be a changed man from now on man
no more sleeping in lectures and tutorials
after i got back all my test results this term
i realised that it's time to wake up
and to work harder
no more delaying of tutorial already

2007-02-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

Spiderman has always been one of my favourite movies
and i find that the quotes in it are always very meaningful
especially the one coming up in may
Spiderman 3

The greatest battle lies within

Sometimes i juz feel like saying it all out
i dun wanna hide it anymore
but i am afraid to hurt the friendship we have now
i dunno why i get so speechless in front of u
what is the problem with me
is it me that i am afraid of
or is it the other people around

Maybe i am too afraid of rejections
cos i was rejected 2 time in a row
ever since my break up
is it my curse
that i have to carry on
that i can nv dare to face rejections
or is it something i can break
the problem lies within me
and that is the battle i have to go thru
before i am able to take the step forward

2007-02-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

那是我们回不去的从前
Looking back I realize it was always there just never spoken

I am trying to say
What I want to say
Without having to say
I ....

2007-02-19T15:16:00.000+08:00

This year's new year is like any other new year to me
eating and sleeping and juz having a well deserved rest
is like there is absolutely nth to do at home
cos all my relatives come and i dun really have to do visiting

For the past three days have been staying at home and eating ah
and that i have been playing mahjong wif my grandma and relatives the whole day
first day nt much luck ah
but the next 2 days my luck had been improving
and i have been on quite a winning streak

Had 3 reunion dinners this year
and i enjoyed all 3 of them
hopefully everyone enjoys theirs too

Really missing playing blackjack and daidee during the new year
but too bad cos family and relatives dun play card games
so have to stick wif mahjong ah
haha

Anw hope tat every one will have a blessed chinese new year
and hope tat all wishes and dreams will come true

2007-02-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

Why do people always have to say something
but always wait till the last minute
before they make the move
sometimes it may alrdy be too late

The first step is always hard to take
even if u have the advantage now
the tables may turn around
and u may lose your footing

I have come so far
and i am not going to lose what i have
it all or nothing

2007-02-14T23:47:00.000+08:00

Woots. finally my 100 post le. haha

It's valentine's day today
and many people are celebrating it wif ones they love
someway or another
some say that this day is another commercial gimmick
where roses and gift items prices go sky high
but to some it s the day where they get the courage
to say what they and need to say

Sometimes things do not go as they seem
and that what u want is not always wat u get
but no matter if u really want it badly
no matter what juz preserve on
and fight for it
cos what and how u fight for it
usually give back in kind

Today was kinda of a fruitful day for me
i received many presents
but whats best is that i managed to gather my courage
and did what i had to do
although it was kinda weird at first
but it worked out fine
thanks to everyone for their advice
and hope that u all will also succeed in you know what ah

Many thanks to everybody for their presents
was the first time i received so many ba
and happy birthday to u ah teik ling
thanks oso for the advice
haha

2007-02-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

What that feeling
that i feel inside
it feels sweet at times
sour at times

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

2007-01-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

Have u ever been angry at someone
who was juz concerned about ypu
and was just trying to be nice
but u did not listen to her
and juz felt damm pissed

I did today
and i really regretted it
i dun know if that person will read this post
but i juz wanna say

I AM SORRY really
for not understanding your intentions in the first place
really SORRY
for causing u much trouble
really SORRY
from the bottom of my heart

2007-01-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

No one likes the feeling of being rejected
no one can really know what will go on in a relationship
some people may like to know the answer quickly
while some like to know it slowly as it means more hope

Me
i choose to know the answer quickly
dun ask me why
cos some things are unexplainable
but i feel its like u are not being misled by anyone
and u know if u stand a chance or not

I really hate the feeling of u being so close to others
but i know that i cannot do anything abt it
so wat if i was ur angel
it was in the past
i am not fated to get it

Maybe i am juz tired of all the waiting
waiting for the unknown answer
i hope that it would be a positive one
but fate deal people in strange ways
and some things are really not meant to be

I really hope that we can keep the friendship
no matter what happens
i rather give up than to see u distant away
i rather we be really good frens

I know i should not love u
but i want to
however i know that
it all end tonight
when darkness turns to light

2007-01-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

Since i got a test on mon
i shall blog abt a story now ah
cos my usual post of monday cannot be done

This will be a different story
its made up of different people leading many different lives
but wif almost the same ending

Story 1

Guy A liked a girl for quite some time
he tried chasing her but to no avail
she would not accept him
she treated him as a fren
and would not want to accept him
he would not give up
but he was already feeling tired

One day he met a group of friends
a new group of friends who he could share secrets with
all secrets could be shared among them
and he saw someone which may affect his life

Is it love
or is it infuation
no one knows
even he himself does not know
what can he do
what should he do

The feeling comes and goes
and the story goes on

Story 2

Guy B had juz broken up a few months ago
and that he was feeling damm depressed
as he was rejected by the girl
he swore never to go into a relationship ever again

One day he met this girl
he did not know her that well
little did he know that they would be close friends

They started going out and
the he felt that he was slowly falling for her
he did not know what he felt
he did not know what to do

The feelings just goes on and on
and the story goes on

Story 3

Guy C was depressed at one point of time
for some reason he did not know why also

One day he saw a girl
a girl with a pretty smile
he suddenly felt a feeling for her
he felt that she had a wonderful smile
and he slowly felt for her

But luck was not his side
she had a boyfriend already
and there was noting he could do

After some time he decided to give up
but he found out that he had slowly fallen for another girl
another girl that he feels has more chances with

Feelings are here and u cant let go
and the story continues

Story 4

Guy D came into a new school
not knowing anyone around
but soon he saw a girl that he felt was the one for him
he tried getting to know her
and he succeeded

All went well until a third party came
he knew guy D liked her
but he stil went on ahead to keep being close to her
guy D was pissed and he could do was to watch
the guy was a sheep in wolf's clothing

Luckily there was his group of good friends supporting him
and encouraging him
spuring him on to continue pressing on

Feeling can be nutured and keep the flame on
and the story goes on

2007-01-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

First impressions are everything
once people gif u the impressions
u may not be able to see what goin on on the inside
what appears on the surface may not be what's the inside
it like an apple looking nice on the outside
but bad on the inside
a bag which look perfect on the outside
but the zipper's spoilt on the inside

I tot i was a good actor
i tot i could fool many ppl wif my acting skills
but some people are better den me
they derserve the oscar awards
or at the very least the star awards

Come on
keep out of all the things
u may not noe what happened
nevertheless some people will stil find out
because paper can never hold fire

2007-01-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

Sometimes what u see may be right
sometimes what u see may be wrong
how do u differentiate right from wrong
and wrong from right
what u see that u think is right may sometimes be wrong
and what u see that u think is wrong may sometimes be right

Loopholes are always there
what may be wrong can turn to right
with the proper use of loopholes
it does not matter anymore what is right or wrong
cos in the end it will only be in ur consience

If all the world's a stage
and we are merely actors in this world
den what role would i be playing
someone great or juz someone who will be an unknown
for the rest of my life

2007-01-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

Life these days has been life a rush for me
the stress level of the workload i have now is rushing up
but since its my choice to come all the way here
i have to endure and strive to work harder

Chem test was today
and was chionging for the past 3 days ah
thats why haven been blogging
chem test was ok ah
but i will not really score well

Night study for the past 3 days
but it has not been very constructive
more play den work
but at least there was relaxation
i hope that can keep us all goin to last this whole year

Dance training was as usual
weds and fri
ending usually at 8 plus
kinda of adapting to it now

My performance in school is now totally crap
last year i was only sleeping in lectures
but this year
i am sleeping in tutorials and practicals
not to mention during lectures too
what's worse is that i find ponning lectures a habit now
this is really bad
i need to stop doing all this soon

What's even more amazing is that
the j1 in my school are mugging like crazy
it's like only the first 3 months
i tot this was the time for enjoyment
and to make more new frens
but what i see is that the library and canteen
study areas are flooded
and wats more ironic is that the j2 are like
taking up less than 20% if the space
-_-"

Where is my motivation when i need it

2007-01-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

This is a story about 2 different people
living 2 different lives
in 2 very different worlds

He was a studious person
with good grades
quite sporty and quite rich
although not really good looking
he was commonly known by his peers as a nerd

She came from a family where violence was common
and that fists and vulgurarites were used to solve disputes
she was a very pretty girl
but not interested in studies

The both of them were from the same school
and were in the same class
it was their last year in that school
and it was the year they would have to take their exams
to determine if they could get to a university
they belonged to very different cliques
and that he was always bullied by her

No matter what he does
she will always have an opinion about it
from scoring the highest for tests to being good in the sport
she would always still say that he was a nerd and that no one would like him

He was very nice and would not retaliate at whatever she said
he just tried living his own life
but the more he ignored her
the more she bullied him
even to the extent of embarassing him in public

Slowly she felt that she was falling for him
she was confused
she had a long line of suitors but she rejected all of them
how could she have fallen for a guy like him

However that was a minor reason
the main reason why she was so confused was that
at that point of time she had only 6 months left to live
as she was suffering from leukemia
and that she at the last stage
and unless a suitable donor is found
she had 6 months left

He too had felt the same way
however he was unsure of his feeling
he did not dare say anything as he was afraid of being laughed by her
he thought about it for a long time
before he came to a decision

One day as he was walking out of school
she approached him to ask him for his homework to copy
or she would do something drastic to him
as always he would surrender his notes to her
but today was different
he decided to tell her his feelings

Upo hearing his confession
she broke down
he was shocked to see that
as he always thought that she was a strong person
he asked her what was wrong
and she told him about her feelings as well
but said it was impossible as she was suffering from the illness

After saying that she turned around and ran as fast as she could
soon she felt a hand grabbing hers and stoped in her tracks
it was him
he had chased her from the spot and at that point of time
shouted to her and asked her for her remaining time to be with her together
she was so touched she agreed

The next few months went in a fury
but it ws during this time where she actually experienced a lot
from being loved to really feeling happy
there was a feeling that she could never explain
and he too also could not explain it

However all good thing wil come to an end
and soon his parents found out about their realtionship
they objected to it saying that she was misleading him
and they did not allow them to see each other

A few days after
she was admitted to the hospital
and that she was in critical condition
but no matter how how he pleaded with his parents
they did not allow him to visit her

On the day of his most important exam
one which would most likely decide his future
it was raining very heavily
his closest friend called him to tell him that she condition had worsen
and that she was in the operating theatre now
he asked him to rush down as soon as possible

He now had a choice
to rush to the hospital or to go for the exam
he closed his eyes for a while
and he knew what he wanted
he went down and hailed a cab
going in the direction of the hospital

At the hospital
he saw her parents very worried outside the operating theatre
when they saw him
they passed him her diary
and said that she had wanted him to look at it
if something had happen to her

As he read the diary
tears flowed down from his cheeks
she had planned what they would be doing for the 6 months that they could be together
every detail every place they would go was written down on her diary
even where thay would spend christmas was written down

He felt very upset
she had planned everything for him
but now what could he do for her
nothing absolutely nothing
he saw at the last page a quote
she had told him about the quote before
her father had used to tell her that at the end of every rainbow
was a pot of gold
however the pot of gold actually refers to a miracle
that a person was wishing for

He peered at the window
and what was there was a rainbow
the rain had stopped and what had appeared was a colourful rainbow
he told about the quote and rushed out to find the end of the rainbow

He did not know how far he ran
but he did not stop
he tried his best to get to the end
however when he reached the end
what he saw was nothing
it was only an empty field and nothing else
he tried making a wish
wishing that she would find a suitable donor at the last minute
and would recover

He waited for a while
but nothing happened
not even a gust of wind
or a call to say she had found a donor
disappointed he turned around and walked away in the direction of the hospital
not noticing a light shining through the place he was standing on

Back at the hospital
her family members upon seeing him
told him that a donor had been found at the eleventh hour
and that the operation was a success
she was now in the ward and was going to wake up soon

He stared at them in disbelief
his wish had really come true
the story about the miracle at the end of every rainbow was true
the light had indeed heard his wish and saw how loving he was to her
and granted his wish

At the ward
as she slowly woke up
the first person she saw was him
she was so happy
tears of joy flowed down
she had almost recovered
and she could be with him from now on

He gave up his studies
his future for the time being
his family
but he had gotten something more valuable
he had gotten the feeling of being loved
and someone to love
and that was enough for him

At the end of every rainbows lies a pot of gold, but what that pot of gold actually is is a miracle

2007-01-20T23:50:00.000+08:00

The zoo has changed a lot since the last time i went there ah
i tink the last time i went there was when i was in primary sch
sounds like a deprived child ah
anw back to the topic
went to the zoo wif aloy alvin tyson yong shun
lao da chee kian kai ying and hui chun ah
was kinda fun although we didnt realli get to see aloy fav animal
the polar bears
haha

Tried outsmarting vending machines again
and this time we succeeded
however the vending machines were smarter again
but it outsmarted us once again
aloy even did something tat he will remember for life ah
and he will eventually thank minute maid for that when he succeed

Had dinner at kfc aft tat wif the ppl cept for kai ying
she left for her brother's bdae
had the buddy meal and solo-ed it alone ah
aft tat went to alvin hse to catch the soccer game ah
liverpool against chelsea
yeah
liverpool won and although i bought draw
i stil felt happy cos i support liverpool
haha

Anw RAINBOWS are kinda nice
and they gif inspiration too
managed to see a rainbow yesterday
during dance training
and suddenly i found some inspiration
haha

To a fren:
heys dun tink so much abt things ah
it will all work out fine de
there is always the group of frens supporting u de
haha

2007-01-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

A.S.S was founded on the 1st of December 2006
Our founders -> Tyson, Aloysius, Alvin and Gerald
Honorary members -> Yong Shun and Lao Da
Members -> some other people
Clients -> confidential
How to join -> those who have the same ideals as us

Our pledge:
We, the members of A.S.S.
Pledge to seh any person
Who tries to create many accidents
For his own benefit
On purpose
We will not tolerate any excuses
And nonsense from this person
And we vow not to be misled by him
Cause he is a stupid pimp
We will follow the path of light
And will always be right

Motto: You touch, We SEH

Sponsors ->Rain Productions
Affiliations ->Rain Productions

2007-01-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

Rain Productions
has juz newly been affliated wif another organisation
and presenting our newest affliation

the A.S.S

where we are proudly sponsoring this society
with as much funds as we have
the members are the same people in Rain Productions too
hehe =)

It was created a long time ago
and nw it has been actively preventing 'accidents'
and gathering support
so if u need any help against anything
feel free to look for us
hehe

anw
tagboard cant seem to do nuts now
sian

2007-01-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

Acidents do happen
but they dun always happen
especially on so many people
sometimes u may not know wat happened
but u oso will not know how the person is feeling
wat appears on the surface
may not be wat is really happenin on the inside
u have to be sensitive abt the people around u
sometimes u have to be careful
it may really be an accident
only u urself know it
but there are oso many eyes watching u
so pls think twice b4
u really do not wanna be caught in the act
u never know wat might happen to u

if anything happens again
not only i but others will find u
the conquences we cannot promise
but it will sure be ugly for u

2007-01-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

Broke 4 testtube in a day
can u believe it
zzz

2007-01-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

Once there was boy A
he liked this girl very much
they were more or less childhood friends
and he liked her since they were in primary school
however the girl did not like him but liked boy B
or so boy A felt
a guy far better him be it in terms of looks studies or sports
boy A did not have a choice but could only quietly keep his feelings for the girl in his heart

One day
boy A managed to ask the girl out
they went out together
for the first time
boy A felt that this would be his best chance
but its was like nothing would go right
the girl met with an accident and was in a coma
doctors all said that the chances of her waking up is slim
and it all depends on her will

boy A felt guilty
he felt that it was like his fault
why didnt he protect her
and prevent the accident
the girl's parents felt the same way too
and disallowed boy A to see the girl

In the end
boy A could only see the girl from afar
whereas boy B was always by her side
boy A prayed hard for a miracle to happen
kept wishing and wishing for her to wake up

After 1 month of wishing
his wish finally came true
a voice from nowhere sounded and told him tat
the girl would wake up only
and only if
Boy A would
sacrifice 10 years of his life for her
and that after she wakes up
both of them will have no recollection of each other

Boy A was given time to think about it
would he give up 10 years of his life for her
but even if she wakes up
they would not know each other
but as soon as he heard that the girl's parents were abt to pull the plug
as they thought that it was impossible for her to wake up
he immediately shouted to locate the voice which told him that it could help her

Boy A agreed to the deal
but he had another request
and that was to at least spend a day happily wif the girl
juz him and her alone
with no one there to bother them
juz the last 24 hours
the voice said okay and boy A saw a splittin ight
before waking up to see the girl beside him

It was the day of the accident
except for the fact that there was no one there
no one to disturb them and no one to stop them
24 hours of free time together
they went to the park, the carnival, the zoo
they had chocolates cotten candy and ice cream for lunch
boy A felt like he was the happiest person on Earth at that time
they view the sunset at the beach
and gazed at the stars at a park near the girl's house
soon time was almost up
and the last thing they did was to see the sun rise together

After all that
boy A sent the girl home
on the way back
he felt that he had to tell her what he was feeling
or there would be no more chance
at the gate of the girl's home
boy A finally managed to tell her what he felt for her
the girl was shocked but did not say anything
boy A thought that it was a gone case and turned around
when the girl tapped him
he turned around
and was kissed on the cheek by the girl

She had been feeling the same way about him too
but had not said anything as boy A did not do anything
boy A regretted not telling her earlier
however there wasnt enough time for words
and soon boy A saw another spiliting light
and he awoke back on his bed

Boy A sat up on the bed and a tear rolled down his cheek
as he touched it
the memories of each other had faded
and all that's left is juz an empty shell
he felt that he had forgotten someone very important
but he could not put his finger to it

At that very same time
the girl woke up as well
as she sat up on the hospital bed
with everyone fussing about her
she too felt that she had lost someone very important

One month later
the girl and boy A had gone on with life as per normal
and boy B managed to win the heart of the girl
its now up to fate to see if they could meet each other again
and get to know one another again

One day in town
when boy A was with his friends
he walked past a group of girls
and suddenly he had the feeling that the someone he had lost was next to him

The group of girls was actually the girl's friends and her walking past
and she felt the same way when boy A's group walked past her

They both stopped in their tracks and looked at each other
Neither one could recognise the other
and that in the end they juz smiled and walked their own paths

would you sacrifice 10 years of your life for the person u love to wake up juz to see memories of each other fade away?

2007-01-13T13:35:00.000+08:00

Sians
my fever is like comes and goes
got a feelin tat this time i really am sick liao lah
sat 2dae but i am stuck at home tryin to recover ah
hopefully will get better by 2dae
so that tml wun have to spend the day at home again

Anw, hope that my fren's is feeling better le ah
had an asthma attack during maths yest ah
den went home ah
hope she's feeling better liao

Hmmm
muz be the weather these days ah
that many people have been falling sick ah
its been like rainin for the past 3 days ah
hope it stops soon and take care everyone
haha

2007-01-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

A true story from a fren:

He has not waited for a reply for as long as this time
it is the first time he has done so
its like he wans to forget abt it
as he feels that it is impossible
but everytime he tries to do so
there will be a force pushing him back
not allowin him to forget abt it
all his frens made fun of him
sayin that he is not serious
and will change his mind soon to come
but this has not been so
and the coldness he feels is one not many people will noe
when will it ever end
when will he ever get the reply
it all up to one person he is waitin for
he has someone in mind before but
now its all over and he is waitin only for that one person
behind his smiles and laughter hides a heart filled wif sadness and sorrow

2007-01-11T11:44:00.000+08:00

School is starting late again
haha
sec sch started school at 8.30
nw jc start school at 7.40
wahaha

But i am so dead lah
sleeping thru the whole day in sch
if u ever hear the lecturer callin someone to wake up
the chance are that the person will be me liao
haha
i find it damm hard to stay awake in sch nw
the only time i am fully conscious is when there the break
other than tat i usually surrender to the ZZZ monster
think i am falling sick soon
all the signs are coming in
muscle aches, headaches and drowziness
hope i really wun be sick

2007-01-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

A true fren is one that comforts u

and lend u a shoulder when u cry

one that shares ur joys and smiles

talks to you

understands you the best and never turn their backs on you

treasure these frens for you never know when another will come

if you let this one go

Frens will get closer aft a quarrel

or thats wat they sae if u all are able to get back
sometimes things are not as complicated as they seem
but it juz take the sincerity to solve all the problems
for those people who have juz solved their friendship problems
congrats to you
but for those who have not
treasure them before its too late
as in life as long as u can find a true friend
u can be contented in life le
or mayb thats for me only ba

Anyway, never try to outsmart a vending machine
cos u never noe when it may juz outsmart u back
and in the end you have to end up paying for the price for 4 drinks
when u intended to use the price of one drink to get 3 drinks
haha

2007-01-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

I have seriously let down someone
that used to be very impt in my life
i used to think that she was ok liao
but is like she stil hasnt gotten over it
i feel like an ass
and i really feel like quittin this game
she was a nice person
but is like i haven treated her well
and feel damm responsible
for what happened to her
aft that very day

Its says that time heals all wounds
but how come for my case it is like so hard
am i really as heartless as she said b4
to be able to juz forget juz like tat
i really didnt forget
its juz nt in my nature to show
i feel that i need to be responsible
but what can i do
she wun even reply me anymore
how do you change the past
without changing the future

Mayb i shld juz leave her be
let her cool down and forget abt me
but i juz wanna say

I AM SORRY

No longer the same person you see before
a guy that has lost all confidence

2007-01-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

Have u ever gt the feeling of being ur fren's next best option?
wher u are like the one they think of
when they do not have any other options left
the feeling of it sucks ah
and is like u have to be always waitin
for the call or sms
juz to know if they wan to go out or help u
and usually when they need help
its like u are the last person that they rely on
and u will feel bad to reject them
but u will help them no matter what cos they are ur frens
and the whole cycle continues again

People always say we shld be more serious in life

but wats the pt in being serious in life but nt happy

Can u be serious but happy at the same time
its like hard to be
and u always have to wear a mask to achieve it
which i hate to do

Living in reality is cruel
living in denial is less painful
which one shld we choose
reality or denial?

2007-01-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

My goodness
this is bad
my father is asking me to keep a check in check out book
of the time i go out to the time i come home
cos he feels that i am treatin my home as a hotel
and i have to do it for a month to show him b4 he will gif me my pocket money
this is really bad
i need to stay home more often
=(

Some people may choose girls over friends
while others may choose otherwise
but sometimes u juz have to choose
would u keep on walkin in front
without caring abt the people left behind
or would u turn back at time to see if anyone is left behind
sometimes the feeling of being left behind sucks a lot
especially if the person in front isnt carin abt the people behind

On a lighter note
some people may always make fun of others
some people are the ones being made fun of
the most impt things is that the person makin fun of the other
does not actually mean it
and he feels bad when something goes wrong
he usually feels damm bad after that
and really repents on the wrong he has done
wishes to get the forgiveness of the person and
still remain as close frens
will he get the chance is up to the person
but he really doesnt mean it

2007-01-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

Week 1 of sch has juz ended
and it has been quite an interesting week for me cept
for the lectures
wher i always gif in to the zzz monster
hehe

A brief recap on wat happened this week in school

Weds
First day of school was as always boring and i had to rush to school cos i was goin to be late. had to meet lao da first to get tie and then ran to sch juz in time for my duty ah. haha. first day as parade commander of 2007 in nanyang ah. lessons went on as normal and had many chats ah. aft sch was dance and had training til ard 6 plus ah. many people were injured that day wif aloy alvin sharon teik ling and gwen ah. hope they are all ok nw ah.

Thurs
First time in the whole of my JC ife wher i end at 1215. haha. went to sentosa wif lao da and aloy ah aft sch cos there was my sch orientation there ah and we want to crash it ah. wasnt very interestin though and aft that went to meet up wif kai ying and hui chun for dinner at vivocity ah. met tyson alvin and yong sheng there as they were catchin a movie as well ah. anyway. really muz thx kai ying hui chun for lettin the tickets that they gt frm a woman at the toilet to lao da and me so we can attend the movie and aloy for lettin me have the place ah. really thx all of u guys ah. i owe u all one. haha

Fri
What can i say? School is boring and i stil have trouble fightin wif the zzz monster. hurt my ankle the day before ah when crossin the road and was like limpin my way through sch ah. haha. skipped running for pe and aft that went wif aloy to the canteen wif the other dance ppl to grab a bite and talked to lao da ah. haha trainin was again at LT4 and aloy and i was like crappin wif each other on stage actin as teahers lecturin and hosts of shows ah. haha. couldnt do the trainin cos of a sprained ankle tgt wif aloy who had a bad back and alvin who injured his hip area ah. so in the end the three of us were sittin wif gwen who dislocated her toe and lookin at the trainin ah.aft trainin went to macs for dinner and then lao da's hse to stay over cos next mornin had trainin and there was no point in goin hm to sleep a while den go out again ah. haha. had fun crapping at his house. haha. anw wanna thx everyone in my class and dance for their concern. haha.

Sat
Woke up to meet tyson alvin kai ying hui chun and shu hui for breakfast at the coffee shop near sch ah. had prata and den waited for alvin to finish cos he was late while the girls went back to mop the mpr which was very dirty. went back to sch but saw a volleyball and started playin wif it til we were late for trainin ah. haha. trainin was all right ah wif no one getting injured and my ankle was more or less ok le ah. stayed back after trainin to do the cca bazaar stuff like paintin banners and buyin gifts ah. went wif aloy alvin tyson chee kian hui chun and kai ying to taka to buy paint for the banner and was painted it before goin home ah. lao da could nt make it as it was his grandma birthday ah. haha. went home after that and hurt my ankle on the way home again while walkin this time. ZZZ. sian. ankle is once again swollen and hopefully after rubbing it later will be better.

Yup that was week 1 of my sch term ah. haha. hopefully next week will be a better week wif more interestin stuff to comin along.

2007-01-03T01:19:00.000+08:00

Zzz
school's reopenin in another 5 hrs plus
another year full of homework, trainings and
stress stress and more stress
haha
furthermore stil got A lvls
but nevermind
cos one more year of studies
and i can break from it for NS le
haha

Hope that the school year of 2007 will be a great and memorable one
juzz like the one in 2006
=)

2007-01-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

Juz came home from the new year's eve countdown ah
went to the countdown wif aloy, lao da, chee kian, eric, kai ying and sharon ah
met at ard 6 plus at city hall mrt but only lao da was there ah
cos the others meetin us later den aloy was a little late
had dinner at kfc and aft the dinner talked abt some gory stuff ah
haha, its too gory i dun even wanna think abt it ah

Aft dinner, we went to meet kai ying and sharon at citylink mall
den we went over to esplanade to camp and wait for the fireworks ah
the place was like a concentration camp ah
as described by aloy who went to find chee kian and eric ah

It was rainin ther and there were many road blocks and human traffic jams there
wif policemen shouting
"PLS MOVE FORWARD AND DUN JAM THE ROAD" or
"TO GO TO THE MRT PLS USE STAMFORD ROAD"
thus we had to leave the place we were camping to find chee kian and eric ah
boy was phone reception bad and we had trouble findin each other ah
luckily we managed to meet at esplanade mall
but because of the rain we went over to raffles city the burger king there to have our countdown lah
haha

Aft the countdown and the planning of stealin burger king buns
we decided to go to our next destination which is to go ghost huntin at old changi hospital
took a train to pasir ris and walked all the walk to changi village wher it was assumed to be at ah
too bad we didnt find it but stil had fun crappin while walkin ah
reached changi village at ard 4 plus and decided that we shld juz stop there and juz sit down to talk

Had fried hokkien prawn mee without prawns
can u believe it?
haha
den chatted a while and played truth or dare until a siao kia came to our table
he was like quite aggressive and was like talking to lao da chee kain and eric lah
damm vulgar lah
every sentence oso got a f***
zzz
he was drunk ba and he onli like drank half a glass of tiger
so ya
scared the girls but we managed to escape and left ther ard 6 plus ba

Went to pasir ris park aft that cos sharon wanted to play on the swing ah
so we headed there ah
and amazingly we saw that same siao kia i mentioned above there oso
OMG
the siao kia got teleportation skills man
gotta make him teach me man
hehe juz jokin

Reached the playground and started playing on the swings before lao da aloy and i really become siao kias too
we went to sit on something that wil keep spinning round and round and took that alomost 6 times lah
the result?
a headache that was like when u are drunk and legs being numb
everyone who did it had a headache and felt like vomitting
but aloy's one was the worst followed by lao da and me
i recovered quite fast cos i vomitted abit ah
but soon we were acting like siao kias again and were like slapping each other lah
haha

Went to have breakfast at ya kun
and again lao da aloy and i were laughin again to try to get rid of the headache
aloy stil had some sort of a "hangover" while lao da and i was almost recoverin ah
went home aft breakfast but i went to meet my fren to get something b i went hm ah
and i missed the bus stop cos i overslept
zzz

Yep. that was how i spent my new year's eve and day this year
and i guess i shld be sleepin through the new year
haha
hope that aloy will be ok
and that my headache that juz came back will go away soon
but juz wanna wish everybody

A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007
hope all ur wishes come true
hehe

Many thanks to aloy, lao da, chee kian, eric, kai ying and sharon
for making 2006 new year's eve and 2007 new year's day
a memorable experience wif much fun and laughters

2006-12-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

Juz came home from dance camp ah
damm tired ah
and i think tat everyone in dance
will feel the same way about it too lah
especially the peeps who were chatting at night.
however the camp was fun and i hope that everyone enjoyed it ah

Now den i realised that Nanyang may be so haunted lah
michelle and sharon saw things yest night
hopefully its only their imagination
and the red colour thing may juz be a big flower haha

Made many video productions during the dance camps
wif aloy alvin and me as the actors
and lao da as the director and camera man
made edited movies like spiderman scream curse of the golden flower
star wars death note and kira and L playing poker wif each other.
haha
really had fun making these productions
and hope we can do more in future

Went to cut my hair after dance camp
and my goodness is it short right now lah
zzz
gonna wear a cap from now on until my hair grows back

2006-12-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for a while ah
Juz wanna wish everyone a late merry christmas ah
Hope everyone gets nice presents from their friends and families.

Holidays are ending and homework is stil piling up
Someone please help me finish them up
I got a strong feeling that i will be staying back after school when school reopens
staying back to complete all my unfinished homework

Choreographing a dance is hard and improving on the moves harder
We had to spend like almost a week to get the dance out lah.
But it was really fun as we did it as a grp
And muz specially thx lao da and chee kian for helping us in the dance choreography

Xmas celebrations was wif the dance ppl mainly the guys ah
Went to catch death note 2 and had ramen for dinner
After that we to tcc to chat and den macs until 12
Managed to take the last train and bus home lah.

2006-12-18T00:43:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since i blogged abt my personal life ba
its been fine cept for the lack of people in it
and i have really got no life anymore
homework working and trainings
its not that its not fun ah
its juz tat i can rarely find time to juz sit down
fot a cup of tea and juz breathe in the fresh air
i have to juz keep rushing here and there

Well, on a lighter note
i juz came back from a movie
and the whole cinema was filled wif couples lah
cept for me and my fren
hais
i really need to know more people
by the way
The holiday is one hell of a boring movie
i almost fell alsleep inside

2006-12-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

Some things realli need confidence
and that the confidence neeeded
may nt neccesary be so easy to get

2006-11-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

Fate deals us in many strange ways
is fate actually pre-destined
is evrything juz like a story
and that the story teller is fate
mayb its fate that things happen

2006-11-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

The way that i feel can never be real
the key to my heart can never be found

2006-11-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

The truth may always be the hardest thing to say
especially when the other party may nt wan to hear it
would u rather hear the truth or juz hear the lie
hear something that u do not want to hear
and try to solve it
or hear something that makes u feel better
and avoid it at all cost

Truth and guilt are linked
no matter what happens
when the truth is told
one will feel guilty
sometimes both

2006-11-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

Routes that we take maybe different
from what others want
it maybe right
maybe wrong
however we should respect the person
and let his follow his own route

Everybody has their own dignity
and we should respect them
we shld nt impose our own ideas
and views on them
its not always abt what u think
but its abt what the person thinks

Why cant ppl juz understand that some things are meant to be
and that we cannot impose our views on them
we can try to avoid what we are afraid or angry of
however some things juz cannot be avoided

2006-11-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

Are making choices so hard
that sometimes its a must to be selfish
that people are hurt in the course
however as long we know what we wan
we shld go wif our feeling

Sometimes telling the truth is very difficult
however lies will onli make things worse
i experienced it before and i noe the feeling
it realli sucks and frenships might be lost

As people said before
a thousand lies will eventually become the true
however why do ppl wan to lie a thousand times
before it can turn into the truth

2006-11-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

The word love is complicated
it can mess up a simple relationship
be it between gd frens or couples
simple things can oso become complicated
and that frenship that once used to be can never be

Love hurts
and there is nth easy in this world
no one wants to hurt anyone on purpose
but fact is everyone wans to find the most precious thing
in all their lives

No one knows wat the future holds
hopefully everything will turn out fine
someone once said that fate is alrdy predestined
however i feel that fate lies in our hands

No matter wat happens
the choices we make
the paths we take
all lie in our hands
it juz depends on whether we take the first step

2006-11-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

Love is abt making someone happy
but when the time comes to make a choice
it abt thinkin abt urself and nt the other party

Giving up is one thing
but feelinf the pain i another
dun mix the two feeling together

2006-10-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

Dun u juz hate it when something u do
may affect u for the rest of ur life
makes u think twice abt the decisions u are abt to make
mistakes made though nt being regretted
but may always make u thinks twice abt the next step u take
eve though the mistakes is a far cry frm wat u are doin

2006-10-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Time is what we make up of
we choose decide and make full use of it
and its nt anyother person's choice but yours

Time really files
and before u noe it
memories of the past are coming back
the times spent together
the moments studyin
the happy times
the sad times
everything seems to come back all at once

whatever we do muz not be something we will regret
live life to the fullest
and not live a life full of regrets

2006-10-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

Life is just a like a drama
and the people juz play a role in it
the only difference is that
we dun have a script to follow
that is why life is so unexpected
things happen when u least expect it

Therefore
if u keep thinkin of the consequences
u will always be stuck halfway

2006-10-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

People come and go but friendship lasts forever
never will i take anyone for granted again
gettin results and being promoted shld be a happy thing
but i dunno y i feel sad
mayb its becos closest frens are retained
so there is nth to be happy abt

2006-10-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

Dont u hate it when someone does somthing and is the first to run?
Wa lao
Pls keep your hands to yourslef man
We cannot cover for you the next time
Pls pls dun do such a stupid thing again

2006-10-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

Random rants

U all heard abt money cannot buy everything
But without money
U cannot do anything

Zzz. dunno wat to blog le. haha.

2006-10-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

I have decided to back out in this game
No more frustration or confusion
Its time for me to say goodbye
And i dun wanna be a fool
In this game for two

I was the extra one
Was not part of the game
Now that everything is over
Its time for me to move along

I dun wanna be a fool
In this tiring game called love
Its not what other think abt me
But what i realli wanna do
And i have decided
All i wanna do is to back out.

The end of my game is coming
And i have come out being owned
Too much have been lost
And i cant stand for any more losses

Its not anyone fault
Not yours or mine
Its juz that the time is not right
The place is not there

The beginning of an end
I am juz asking for that
Is that so hard to fufill

2006-10-21T19:16:00.000+08:00

Love is not about how much u love the person
Sometimes it may just depend on the time and place u meet that person
U may not get her even though u met or loved her first

Choices are part and parcel of life
No matter wat u do
U stil have choices to make
Wats impt is that u make the choice
And dun live to regret it

The answer is i should go.

2006-10-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

Love is not abt who is right or who is wrong
Love come when u least expect it
Enemies may turn to lovers
Friends to enemies

Dun fear love when it comes

Embrace it

It takes moments to fall in love
But years to know what love actually is

A journey of a thousand miles
Begins with the first step
But the first step is usually the hardest

Should i stay or should i go?

2006-10-18T18:09:00.000+08:00

Love is weird.
It juz come when u least expect it.
And b4 u noe it
It may alrdy b gone

Cherish wat u have
Tell her b4 its too late
Things will nv change unless u make the first move

There is no such thing as fearing what others think
U only fear urself
If u think that wat u do is correct
Go for it

Take the chance b4 its all too late

3 frens 3 different personalities 3 similar stories

2006-10-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

The results may come and go.
but frenships will nv die. i realised one thing now.
papers own u and nt the other way round.
so wat if u score high.
in the end.
no one cares.

2006-10-16T00:14:00.000+08:00

Just wanna say to everyone out there. no matter what happens. frens will alwaes be the ones i choose. nothing a girl can do to make me choose her as a girlfriend over my gd pals( guys or gals) and i hope all my frens will noe this. girls come and go but gd pals are far and few. i have lost too many gd pals to afford to lose one more. so i hope they noe that to me. they are more impt than me gettin a girlfriend.

2006-10-14T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hmmm. random rants. so much time. so little to do. life aft promos realli sucks lah. i rather go back to the time where i was stil chiongin for the promos lah. at least there are things to do. oh wait. i juz wanna go back to when i was a baby. where there were no worries. juz eat and sleep. guess tat isnt possible ba.

2006-10-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

The beginning of an end. is it really that happenning?